Soliloquy of the day

(Soliloquy: Really just a conversation when you're alone and no one can respond) Love What is it? How soon is too soon? Backwards it almost spells evolve (well if you have some creative licence or can't spell, like me). Does that mean falling in love is an essential part of humanity and is essential for me to evolve and improve? I think it's only my first paragraph and I've already written the scary 'L' word too many times. Love usually takes time to develop, doesn't it? Some people say love at first sight. I almost wrote site, but that changes the meaning completely. If you see someone and have an intense feeling, I feel that that is just lust. I believe that love develops slowly over time. A natural progression or deepening of feelings. Although love at first sight (not site) would be pretty cool! All the love, or more correctly, romance movies, must contain this mysterious feeling. And it makes us all want it. God damn it! Usually it's just this awkward thing that happens between two people (or multiple or animals, but that's a different soliloquy topic). Or it's hilariously embarrassingly funny. You know what I'm talking about. That missed kiss or attempted hug that you try to pretend didn't fail. That's really the only love I've seen first hand (well, not in a movie or with super famous people). But I think, recently something has changed. And I don't really know how to describe it. Or what to do with what I'm feeling. Like, I felt this feeling then decided to take my dog for a walk. But that doesn't seem like a normal response, right? I think I want to tell the person who makes me feel this way. But my main dilemma is: is it too soon? Second self-conscious/not confident person issue: what happens if it's only me feeling this way? (Cos that's super embarrassing and painful, right?). Am I alone in this? I reckon I'm not. But at the same time I reckon I'm over thinking and worrying, which women (girls?) or my age are super good at. It's fun a bit too, remembering how immature and silly I can be. But back to my soliloquy topic or thought. The feeling of bliss and warmth that just sort of rises from your stomach to your heart region. It's not too dissimilar to heartburn or indigestion. I think I am just trying to express my feelings without expressing them, because I'm a chicken and I'm scared. But isn't that what love is all about? Taking risks and jumping into waterfalls?